comment "love" letter by letter! - @ripfairy - "i. you told me you were sad and i told you the world is lucky to have you and it made me feel good to be nice to you even though you wronged me. it feels good to tell you i love you, to tell you that you are perfect the way you are, to tell you that you are more than your mistakes.
ii. and yeah, i’m not lying, but here’s the secret: i think i do it less for you and more for me.
iii. i think if i tell you how great you are enough, i’ll forget about everything you ever did to me. and maybe it doesn’t work in the long run, but it works in the moment. and i’m learning to take things moment by moment these days.
iv. so yeah, this is probably the wrong decision. i shouldn’t be here to build you up. everybody tells me to cut you out. and here’s the secret: they’re right. i should. but talking to you makes me feel like a good person, something that ignoring you never could. and maybe if i try hard enough, you’ll fall back in love with me. and maybe this time, i’ll be the one who leaves.
v. so i’m comforting you when you’re sad and telling you that you are more than your mistakes and i mean it, i really mean it but
vi. just because i can’t let go of you doesn’t mean i don’t wish i never met you."
— secrets i never wanted to keep, pt. 2