Maybe I could forget about you if you weren’t so embedded in my thoughts. Maybe I could finally lose the spark I felt towards you if I wasnt already so drawn to you like a magnet, clinging to the last shred of hope that you’ll feel the way I do… but you don’t. After all, you only ever talk to me when I’m with her.
You love her, I love you. She’s my best friend. You know I’m sitting next to her, so you acknowledge my presence and then continue typing away your stories to her screen. Little do you know, I’m peering over her shoulder desperately trying to read and understand every word you say, because everything that comes out of your mind is magic. And if there was anything I could do to implant the truth about my love for you into your mind, I would.
If you could see and feel what I felt for you, you might finally get the feelings of comfort and purpose you’ve been looking for your entire life on this journey. I’m so incredibly entranced by you and your mind, but you only see me as “that friend” of the girl who capsized your world. But you… you’re the boy that capsized mine. Maybe I’ll forget you someday. But the scars on my heart won’t forget the indelible blue-eyed boy with the most beautiful mind. — 4.10.17 / sunset thoughts