It's hard to be myself in a world that just can't wait to tear me apart over every little thing. As a Cancer my first instinct when someone is criticizing me to the point I space out mentally is to hide in my shell and start thinking of ways to make whoever is putting me down like me better. Walking around wearing a mask is a choice I have. I can hide my true self, surround myself with fake people and be lonely as hell OR I can be my true self, surround myself with people who see my flaws and love me unconditionally and be extremely happy. I feel like a couple years ago I tore off what I call my "safety mask" little by little and now there is nothing else to tear off. I feel like for the fist time in my life I have nothing to hide behind and I will be honest it is the scariest thing in the world. Even though the mask I hid behind is long gone and now I am scared and uncomfortable I feel more free. I feel less suffocated and less overwhelmed. I am accepting more everyday that not everyone will like me and I could be a Disney Princess and there will still be people who hate me. I'm 25 and people think at that age they have their shit together 110% but no one has their shit together (to an extent) and that's okay. I'm so sick of worrying about age and having to be perfect and please people all the damn time which I strongly feel are side affects from hiding behind a mask for years. No more mask. That's probably why I have bad acne because it gets hot behind a mask (horrible sense of humor I do not apologize for because part of who I am is telling bad jokes). I find my face glorious without a mask and anyone who disagrees can just take their negativity to someone who cares.