HIIT, chest and tris this morning. One year ago today we headed to my home town to spend the wknd w my family. It was the last few days I spent w Tyler before he passed away. I do a decent job of hiding my feelings from others on a daily basis. I didn't realize the tooth and nail struggle life becomes after loss. Everyday is a marathon, the pain feels unbearable, the tears never stop. I see all kinds of people, but the only face I want to see I will never see on this earth again. I didn't realize how difficult that is to internalize. @tsash was a fighter and I'm doing my best to be too. With God's help and my daily workouts I don't feel quite so fragile.
The day Ty passed he babysat my kids so I could workout, I was about 4 months post pardum. I remember he asked me "what's the next goal? You're already skinny, but I know that's not your goal." I remember telling him to be strong. A strong body and strong mind. A year later I'm still working on it. I'm starting to realize it's an ongoing quest. When my chest gets tight and the air seems thin, I take deep breaths and picture Ty in heaven pain free. God has a plan in all of this pain. If nothing else, at least he set Tyler free of his earthly pain and took him home! One day we will meet again. Love you and miss you more than words can say tyguy 😘 As you head into the weekend, don't take anything or anyone for granted bc you never know.
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