I can still remember everything. Your eyes that held the universe, your hair that would always capture the sunlight at just the right angle. I remember your smile, the special one, the one where you showed all of your teeth and your eyes would crinkle because you were overflowing with happiness, the one with that dimple, the one that was mine.
I can remember your laugh, it was beautiful. I’m sure now that you were a siren because it all sounded like a song, luring me in, drowning me in your presence. I can remember how you used to take your coffee and when coffee wasn’t the right for the moment, you would get a warm tea with milk and sugar.
But what I remember the most, the image ingrained into my mindscape, I can remember vividly you walking away.
I remember your back when you crossed my door.
I remember the frost overlaying your blue eyes when you ended things.
I remember your melody as it enticed me and broke my heart when you sang goodbye.
I remember the frown that didn’t belong on your face, it didn’t sit right there.
I can remember it all, your undying beauty and your ice. And I’m sorry that I did not remember your pain then. I saw you but I did not see everything. I remember the darkness you said you had been holding in, and I’m sorry I was too blinded by your smile to see it too.
ー I remember my heart shattering, is this how you felt too?…