I am in the strange situation where life is really hard in so many ways, and still I´m deeply touched by life’s beauty. YOU are the beauty. Connection and love is the beauty. I`ve started on this caption an endless number of times, because I really need to say thank you!! Your personal messages, comments and love sent at my direction keeps me going. My body has been like a prison guard from hell, screaming NO whenever I try to do something, forcing me to just stay in bed for several months. A sick body commands. When we are healthy our body obeys. I think about how clever and elegant our body is. In a healthy state it doesn´t scream at you to rest and care for your self. It whispers gently in it´s own language: a little tiredness, irritation, emptiness, adrenalin rush, an ache…. Not disturbing you too much, just trying to remind you of the importance of self-care. Guiding you gently towards listening to your self. Sadly many of us overlook the message, push it away with coffee, pills and alcohol, or curse at this damn body that doesn´t work perfectly. Or like me, we want to take care of our self, but we haven´t learned from childhood what good self-care is. We tend to label the body’s messages as symptoms and problems that must be fixed and removed, so we can keep on with our (disconnected) life. But when we are rude to ourselves our body will speak louder, because we have to care for ourselves to survive and thrive: A migraine, a depression, pain, anxiety, insomnia… and eventually the worst scenario might be chronic or fatal conditions. My story is a slowly fall, and in the end, a total collapse along this path. My absence here has been lonely and frustrating, and I´ve missed you. But to be honest my absence is a victory, because it means I´ve learned to listen and respect my body’s signals. I dream of a day when I´m healthy enough to experience the body’s elegant whisper again. And I pray that I have learned my lesson and will listen to it, respect it, and even thank the symptoms for guiding me towards a balanced life. Our symptoms are not our enemies. They are friends and helpers, if we let them be.
I´m forever grateful for your love!!!