2 years and 4 months ago my baby girl Karmin developed epilepsy just completely out of the blue...with unknown causes. She was suffering from seizures every couple weeks, then every couple days, then every day all day until we got them under control. Her last seizure was 2 years ago today, which means we get to start weaning her off the harsh meds we have been feeding her these last couple years! That was one of the hardest things in my life...giving my child man made medication that made her into a zombie for a while, took away her bubbly personality and made her more angry than I have ever seen her. It did stop her seizures eventually but only after experimenting different meds too see which 2 worked best for her condition. The first hardest thing I have ever dealt with was seeing my 3 foot toddler have Grand Mal seizures throughout the day. I knew that the effects of the meds would be better than her suffering. So as I bawled my eyes out on the kitchen floor hating that I had to give her medication that would make her feel weird, I knew it was the right thing for her at the time! I'm not sure what caused this but I do know I feel for every single mother and/or father that has gone through this or something similar with their child. It is so hard to see your kids in pain and you literally can't do shit about it. 2 years later I am so happy that it is now time to start getting her off this shit. Kinda nervous at the same time. When someone has epilepsy it never really goes away, people diagnosed with epilepsy can stop having seizures but the seizures can also start up again at any time. She deserves a normal healthy life like anyone else does! Karmin means THE WORLD to me, like my other children. I would do ANYTHING for this little girl. If I could take this away and have it instead of her...I would in a heart beat, no questions asked! She is such a strong little girl and I am so proud of her courage throughout these past couple years. Here's to a new chapter...I'm hopeful that things will go smooth and if for some reason they don't I am mentally prepared for that too. I will be right by my babys side doing whatever I can to make her comfortable along the way.