The desire to be myself. To be known for who I am. To know the depths of my own heart and be most aware of my emotional state. To discover deep truths about human nature. To bear compassionate witness to the suffering of others. To be profoundly honest. To distinguish myself from others. To express individuality. To be imaginative. To create and surround myself with beauty.
This is a little bit of what it means to score highest in the Type 4 category on the Enneagram. Type 4 is known as "The Individualist." Just hearing that word makes me feel proud.
But being a Type 4 also means I am moody. Self-absorbed. Temperamental. Dramatic. Self-indulgent. And I spend too much time in my head, either being overly imaginative or preoccupied with memories. The Enneagram's personal growth recommendations for fours like me: Do not equate yourself with your feelings. (Can I get an amen?!) Commit yourself to productive, meaningful work that will contribute to the good of others. (Done and done!) Stop waiting until "you're ready" for challenges. (Cringe...) Put yourself in the way of good, and commit to something that will bring out the best in you. (Makin plans already!) A healthy self-discipline is not contrary to your freedoms. (So true!) Avoid lengthy conversations in your imagination. (Oh. Ya. I do that a lot don't I?)
Does this resonate with anyone? Maybe you are a 4! Or maybe you are a 1: The Reformer. A 5: The Investigator. Or an 8: The Challenger. Either way, I think you should take the test and find out! There's a lot we can learn about ourselves and others, and the way God made us all unique. The more we understand one another, the better we can support each other and show one another grace! Now I wanna know: if you've taken the test, what number are you?! Comment below!