I wanted to wait til I had the Wand of the Warrior in hand to write about. I want to start under the Joy sign made by a coworker of my Hubby’s to put it together- The sign says JOY and I am the Warrior. And sometimes Warriors need a little extra help. .
On Monday when Bardie and I had the discussion about the need for a pronged cane, I was not at all on board. It felt like One. More. Thing. My meds are making me so wonky. I have fallen so many times. By the grace of God I have not broken anything. My balance is off. We joke and say the walls keep moving. It was funny in the beginning. And then it ceased to be funny as it hurt more and more. And I know and Bardie knows it’s only a matter of time before I break something. Before I hit my head again and it’s unfavorable. .
I had my tears. I needed my day to fall apart on Monday. And then two falls yesterday. Many more f😫cks and ohmyhells. Walls jumping out at me. And I settled as I waited for Wanda to be delivered. .
Today she came. And Monday I had decided to call her The Wand of the Warrior. Another “life-giving”part of the journey of healing. Sharing her is taking the shame out for me. And maybe I will find some others in this badass tribe who will also be carrying these wands. They are magic, you know. For now, I hope Wanda will just be helping me around my house where I struggle the most. I take my meds on schedule here. Going out, I could not function properly if I did so so. Self care is limited. Hence another reason I am a hostage to my home. .
So this is Wanda, my Wand of the Joy Warrior. She joins Meredith, my feeding tube, as another lifesaver. A necessary part of living with rare and invisible diseases. And life after brain surgery. We can do hard things. I am doing them. You can too, Darlin. I love you. I love me. I love us. #Joywarrior #andsoichoosejoy #thisonelife #walkingstick #wandofthewarrior #badassery #lifegiving #warriorspirit #shameless #reallifestory #vulnerability #raredisease #invisibleillness #grief #joyandpain #showingup #choosejoy #daybyday #theartofhealing #wanda #wekeepgoing #sacredselflove #steppingup #steppingout #itsoktonotbeok #loveyourtribe #spoonie #anextentionofme #courage