For #themaytarot challenge, day 22 was "relate a draw to a childhood memory". I did a regression meditation to find an early memory of sensing danger among the options
I went to a long forgotten memory of my mother (who is now, rest assured, working through her racism baggage) telling me that a specific friend couldn't come over to the house because she "wouldn't be a good friend." Thing is, she was one of the nicest kids in my class. But she was black. I didn't know (as a six year old) that people had implicit biases and that hers were blinding her to how lovely a person my friend was in that moment. I lost a friend that day. How many more did I lose or just straight up miss out on being friends with in the last 28yrs because I was blinded by unquestioned inherited bias? I'm #grateful for this memory. I'm grateful it's in the light so I can deal with it sanely and positively
#journalprompt if you're sensing danger ahead, is it real? Is it a fear that your forebears burdened you with that's now outdated and needs to be released? Is it real, and what would your best self do to mitigate the risk? Is walking away the best choice or the worst?
#communitybuilding If it's a long-standing stumbling block, how can you make restitution to the people you hurt in self-defence? Who have you unwittingly dragged into the danger zone?
#nextlevel imagine the scared voice in your head is a toddler; what does it need to hear to be reassured and quiet down so you can hear the more rational voices on the head committee? Does that moody toddler (who serves an evolutionary function, so can't be discarded entirely) need boundaries on what choices it can make for you?
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