The first time I consciously meditated was in high school. I only participated because I was required to during class. I was taking a course called “World Religions” and as part of our unit on Buddhism, our teacher had us meditate for 10 minutes during class. We all lay on the floor, the lights were turned off and we were encouraged to let go of our thoughts. I was totally mortified.
All I could focus on were the million other things I *really* needed to be doing in that moment- like getting into college and reviewing my notes for a test I had later in the afternoon. •
I had a very jaded view of religion growing up, and as a teenager, my mind conflated religion and spirituality. I deeply resented being made to go to church as a kid, bristling every Sunday. I even had my mother, who is trained as a lawyer, draft a “contract” that we both signed, absolving me from required church attendance when I turned 13.
I thought it was cool to be “intellectually superior” to people who had faith and organized their lives around principles. How could anyone be so trusting, so “simple?” It was obvious to me, with zero experiential investigation of my own, that they were wrong and unintelligent. •
Today, I am still not religious. I don’t attend any organized religious institution, but I do believe in something greater. What that something greater is is constantly evolving the more I explore, read, travel and talk to new people. I most easily access this connection in nature.
I believe deeply in curiosity, exploration, open-mindedness, and the necessity of questioning everything- even what you think you know. We need critical thinkers and open hearts now more than ever. •
Yesterday, my exploration took me to the Integratron in the California desert where I took part in a sound bath with about 30 other people. What exactly happened, I don’t know, but the hour and a half experience felt both instantaneous and eternal. We all left with smiles on our faces. Today, I’m driving into the desert of Joshua Tree to see what waits for me there... •
happy exploring! ✨☀️🌵