So we got a post consultation letter today from Bath Fertility, just a summary of what Dr Coats told us when he saw us a week ago. The letter says that our IVF will have 20% chance of being successful. We somehow missed that crucial bit of info during our appointment...How to stop yourself from sliding into that deep dark place when every period each month brings a heartbreak and you feel like you have lost control over your body and over you life plans? For so many months I allowed sadness and a whole bunch of other negative emotions to take over. One morning when I woke up to yet another heartbreaking period, I made a teary pact with myself that I was going to sign up for a tough, hilly marathon near the North Pole, train hard for it, get stronger, start my fertility investigations after the run, get through them swiftly, and emerge on the other side with a family Oli and I have longed for for such a long time. I’ve never been good with doctors and hospitals, so for me that first step to book my initial appointment at my local surgery to get the ball rolling after we came back from Svalbard was a huge emotional milestone, finally facing up to the possibility we might have fertility issues. I dedicated that marathon to me and Oli getting through our fertility investigations and treatment in one piece, and, hopefully, with three children as a result of it. We don’t know yet if that wager worked fully, but over the past three months I managed to get on swiftly with visiting various specialist and getting various diagnosis. I definitely emerged stronger from that finishing line of the Spitsbergen Marathon, but we are going to need even more strength over the month of October, our IVF month.
I wish all you wonderful fertility friends to find something that will give you the strength you need on this journey. Stay strong lovely people and don’t lose hope. X