last months were horribly unsuccesfull. only got job cancellations and I lost all my hope to find something in this life again because let‘s face the facts: two years gone by and nothing... it sucks. it really does. and all these words like „you have to do harder! you can‘t give up! you‘re just lazy!“ just make things worse.
I’m so done. totally lost all my motivation to draw. days go by with nothing. I‘m living for others and help them just to avoid the feeling of being useless. every day is terrible.
migraines been there since months (I stopped to count the days) and it feels like my head is numb and heavy at the same time.
nothing helps; medicaments, black coffee with lemon, sleep, food... all leads to nothing but more pain.
anyways...here‘s a dumb penny as lifesign.
I miss the productive times where I used to create at least one drawing per day...
this life isn‘t worth it anymore.
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