I often repeat the "my burden has become my gift" when I feel like I do tonight.
Like, I told my mom how I feel and she's very supportive and everything, but I have a big family and how do I explain to them that I feel like a man? That I -am- a man, and have always felt that deep inside but always tried to ignore it to please other people. I hate myself for being so scared of people's reaction. I mean, my happiness should come first, right?
But I guess it's a bit because I come from a pretty homophobic/transphobic country and all that. I don't live there anymore, which I'm happy about, but it's still difficult with my family.
But one day, I know, I will come out of the shell I've been hiding in for so many years.