*WARNING.. RANT AHEAD*
Okay so pic #1 I found this message in my lost files on fb nd I didn't read it until now.. idk why but this just erked a nerve. "You were so awkward looking". Bih, I know. I looked like pic #2 most of my life. I was constantly made fun of, had no friends, never got invited anywhere, never got picked for anything.. yes bih I was awkward. That's why when I started to become the person I was in pic #3 I was easily manipulated to do things I knew I shouldn't have. Things I didn't want to do. Afraid of not being accepted. Things that I never wanna say out loud.. I'm ashamed of who I turned into after I left my 'ugly duckling' phase.. I miss my awkward self cuz she was honest. Pure. Kind. And until now I realized she was the most beautiful version of myself and now she's gone.
I'm a completely different person than what I was back then. I have a beautiful babygirl that will never know any of the people I was nd she doesn't care! She loves me unconditionally and that is what I gotta work on myself. I know I turned into what society calls beautiful... but I was already that. No-one just bothered to see it. That's why I thank God every day for finally putting such amazing people in my life to make me the person I am today. Pic #3. Bold. Beautiful. And with a GENUINE smile ❤ #ThankYouGod. #IOweItAllToYou.