Because of my brain injury and my current medication side effects, sometimes I do not see things that are literally right in front of me. It's like when you read and reread your email and then send it and realize too late that you made such a tremendous mistake that you're in shock because it's so the opposite of who you are . It's the most embarrassing thing. It happens to me all the time to the point where I make big mistakes. Then I tear myself up inside and feel like this. (portrait by me circa 1995) It's been happening so much lately that I think it's time to go back to doing a bit more brain gym.. I still don't know how to forgive myself for the mistakes I make because of my brain. They aren't me. In a very small miniscule way, it feels like someone who has Tourette's syndrome and keeps uncontrollably calling people asshole. I would never blame that person, so why am I so unforgiving with myself. My entire new body of artwork will be addressing just this. I will be continuing to challenge my perfectionism. And learn to embrace the imperfections, the mistakes, the mismatched clothing, the paint drops, the messy lines, the scribbles... Aka... LIFE.