Being in Germany has really given me the opportunity to get closer to my spiritual side.
Not being able to play of course has been a new experience and one where I have had to be a new self. BUT most importantly it really has made me see things with my eyes more open.
The amount of messages I have recieved dont get me wrong, I appreciate and are great but I think a lot of people have taken this adversity in the wrong way completely. I can't play people? But am I dead? Am I dead? Football is important of course but not more important than being happy.
Also, the achievements, making my national team etc of course they matter but not as much as the journey. And all those things will come with hard work or not but it is not what will make me happy nor what I am searching for.
The small achievements which are massive. Like trying to do a ladder exercise whilst trying to remember the colours in German, figuring out ways to communicate with your team, being alone and away from your family. All those things, I celebrate everyday. The small things I celebrate and I clap for myself in silence. They keep me motivated.
Being a footballer yes is important and what we do is our life but I guess what I want to say is...there are so many different dimensions that make a person. And no I have not given up my football career to teach English online. If you did not know I am also an academic, a teacher, a scout, an ambassador you get the picture.
BUT most importantly, I am a SISTER, a daughter, a friend, a best friend and I hope that I am a person like under all this haha.
Please just live a life that you want. And at anytime when this no longer makes me happy. I will go home and be with my family.