"I am divinity defined,
I am the god on the inside,
I am a star, a piece of it all,
I am light." - India Arie 🌞
You can clearly tell by the look on my face that I was sad the moment this picture was taken. We had just left a party in Barcelona, it was our last night in the city. At this party all of my social fears and insecurities suddenly washed over me like a wave that swept me off my feet. I felt so much fear in my body, I couldn't even dance, which scared me even more, because: I always dance. Its usually my way of dealing with fear and it gives me a feeling of empowerment. But I just couldn't do it. Luckily I still kinda managed to fight it: while sitting on the ground watching others dance, I connected with some really nice, beautiful italian ladies living in Barcelona. I intruduced them to my flippyfluxx and even managed to get us all to stand up in a circle and play with it. Something I probably never would have done in other times. But still - the moment this picture was taken I couldn't feel anything except that I had failed. Now I know that this was just another lesson about holding yourself to a standard and letting go. And I know that I actually didnt fail at all that night, just because I didnt dance and party as much as I wanted to. I just forgot that I am light and my light is needed here, even in places where it absolutely doesnt feel like it.
Love to you all ❤