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"You feel your obligation to a child when you have seen it and held it. Any human face is a claim on you, because you can't help but understand the singularity of it, the courage and loneliness of it. But this is truest of the face of an infant. I consider that to be one kind of vision, as mystical as any." Marilynne Robinson, Gilead
One of my favorite photos of all time, of two of my beloveds. This man has journeyed with me every single step of the way, by my side when I birthed our girls, at their side when they needed him.
There is absolutely nothing in the world that prepares you to hold your child as she dies in your arms. But having a partner like him to hold her with you is everything.
Holding our beloved Maggie in the light tonight, remembering one year ago when she returned to the embrace of God.
#maggieandabby #infantloss #lifeafterloss #everydaysacrament

I thought about posting this for a long time and I'm sorry if it's too graphic. My babies were born at 18 weeks and 6 days gestation. Kiera on the left measures a couple days ahead and her brother Barrett on the right measured an entire week ahead. Loosing a baby is hard, loosing both my babies in the same day was something I never could have even began to imagine. But, here I am. I'm at a total loss for words and am not exactly sure how to even feel at this moment in time. I guess the biggest reason why I'm posting this is because after I was told they were basically just waiting for me to loose this pregnancy I searched high and low on Instagram for other people who have suffered and been through it.. it helps to know I'm not alone. I hope that other mommies or daddies can come across my page and feel even just the slightest bit of comfort. #InfantLoss #ForeverMyBabies #KieraViolet #BarrettKai

"Though she be but little, she is fierce." My arms ache to hold you. My heart is breaking. Time moves forward, and you remain the same. Never to grow, to change, to be anything but my tiny five pound five day old baby. I miss you. There aren't words to describe how deeply I ache for you. I feel your memory slipping away from my mind and it frightens me. You are forever loved. πŸ’•πŸ“ #infantloss #emiliakatherinehope #babyloss #mamagrief

"Today is the day my sweet son, Johnathan Edward, was due. I have spent the last few months trying to find the most perfect way to honor my angel baby. Anyone who has suffered from a miscarriage, infant loss – or any loss for that matter – knows exactly how I feel...." ...continue reading by clicking link in my bio. (I remember holding that onesie thinking how cute it'd be to have Johnny in it one day announcing he's finally here.) 😒#AlwaysInMyHeart πŸ‘ΌπŸΌ #miscarriage #pregnancyloss #infantloss #johnathanedward

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My weight started to pile on after having a miscarriage with my first child. I rarely wanted to leave the house, using food to help with depression and anxiety. The heavier I got the worse it became, a vicious cycle. My turning point came years later after having my son. I broke down in a fitting room after I was unable to button size 22 jeans and vowed to get healthy. My journey was a long one, truthfully it's not over. I slowly started making better choices. I tried several avenues, seeing what worked best for me and my lifestyle. Low carb/high protein and fat, and lots of veggies were great for me. And I traded eating for exercises to help me feel better emotionally and physically......I fell off many times, but always got back on. I will always be a work in progress but if I can do it, anyone can!!! Never stop trying.

#SundayShareDay #weightlosssuccess #weightlossjourney #weightlossstory #weightloss #myjourney #betterhealth #fitnessfamily #gymlife #bingeeatingrecovery #BED #childloss #infantloss #miscarriageawareness #behealthy #happiness #miscarriage #allinmoderation #workingout #youcan #success #betterme #womanshealth #mybeforeandafter #whathealsyou #eatclean #mayweallheal #eatingproperly #properfoods #overcominganxiety

"Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give, but cannot. All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go." -Jamie Anderson

Missing this tiny one tonight. πŸ’™ Love you sweet Afton.

#mamagrief #whathealsyou #healing #bereavedmother #infantloss #babyloss #lifeafterloss #missingyou #sweetaftonboy

Happy first birthday, sweet babies. Avery in my arms and Oliver in my heart β™‘β™‘

A #MollyBear is a bear made for you in the exact birth weight of the baby you lost. This is Phoebe's and our #RainbowBaby playing with it. #PregnancyLoss #InfantLoss @mollybearsorg

Today is rare disease day and another opportunity for me to share my story. Our Reece and Addison had to be delivered via c-section at 23.5 weeks because I had severe and early onset preeclampsia. Preeclampsia is a rare disease that affects the placenta and therefore affects the mother. My blood pressure was at stroke levels when I was admitted to the hospital and they were unable to manage it. The only cure for preeclampsia is to deliver the babies. Once it is diagnosed, or will either stay the same or only get worse, there is no cure for this disease yet. Due to the severe prematurity of our babies and their growth restriction as a result of the preeclampsia, they were too small to have a breathing tube placed in and managed to spend 2 hours with us here on earth. There is still a pretty good chance that I will develop preeclampsia at some point in any of my future pregnancies, but now that we know that I'm prone to it, there are some different actions that can be taken early on in our next pregnancy. It is important to keep ourselves educated on these different types of diseases. #infantloss #reeceandaddison #infantlosssupport #rarediseaseday2017 #raredisease #preeclampsia #preeclampsiasurvivor


Sent lots of balloons to heaven for my sister's birthday. Wish you was here princess as mum and I miss you so much xxxx #everlygracerowlings #sister #heaven #missyou #birthday #infantloss #angelbaby

It's Rainbow week! 🌈 πŸ‘ΆπŸΌ This week is dedicated to our Rainbow babies. Save 50% off of this Rainbow Rose Crown this week only! Please share and tag your friends who have Rainbow Babies. I will choose 2 winners to receive a free Rainbow Crown on March 7th. β€οΈπŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œ Buttercreambowtique.etsy.com @buttercreambowtique
@grayceandkindness "A rainbow baby is a child born after a miscarriage, stillbirth, neonatal death or infant loss. The term has encouraged parents to share their stories of loss – and the babies that followed." #buttercreambowtique #etsy #bows #feltbows #feltflowers #flowercrowns #leatherbows #flowers #RainbowWeek2017 #rainbowbaby #rainbowcrown #rainbowbabyheadband #crafttherainbow #babybows #babyfashion #babiesofinstagram #stillbirth #miscarriage #giveaway #infantloss #childloss

It's Rainbow week! 🌈 πŸ‘ΆπŸΌ This week is dedicated to our Rainbow babies. Save 50% off of this Rainbow Rose Crown this week only! Please share and tag your friends who have Rainbow Babies. I will choose 2 winners to receive a free Rainbow Crown on March 7th. β€οΈπŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œ @grayceandkindness "A rainbow baby is a child born after a miscarriage, stillbirth, neonatal death or infant loss. The term has encouraged parents to share their stories of loss – and the babies that followed." #buttercreambowtique #etsy #bows #feltbows #feltflowers #flowercrowns #leatherbows #flowers #RainbowWeek2017 #rainbowbaby #rainbowcrown #rainbowbabyheadband #crafttherainbow #babybows #babyfashion #babiesofinstagram #stillbirth #miscarriage #giveaway #infantloss #childloss

(Something I share at the beginning of the 3rd month each year):
March never meant much of anything to me. I always thought of it as one of the boring, winter months that you must endure to arrive at beautiful Spring and Summer.
All that changed for me in 2010, when my precious March girl was in my arms and just as quickly, she was gone...
March is marked by a sacredness. It holds the memory of a little flower 🌸 that danced into my heart and left me changed forever. When it comes, all the March memories of 2010 come flooding back.
The rest of the year, I catch myself wondering if I somehow dreamed all this up. For everything around me is the same as it was before Lily was here. That's how it is with infant loss.
As March makes it's entrance once again on the calendar, it becomes much easier to believe she was real. The bittersweet feelings envelope me. The veil of sadness returns. My body even feels it. The memories of the first half of March 2010, full of happiness and anticipation. The memories of the second half of March 2010, full of shock, heartbreak, and tears.
March will never be just another month for me. It will remind me of my firstborn babe, the babe I never fully got to know. The babe I will always wonder what might she be like *this* March, as we approach her birthday. Whether she be almost 5, 10, or 25. Would she have her own flower, her own babe in her arms this year, 20 years from now, to celebrate with us?
Each year, as March rolls around, it will mark another year that she wasn't here. Another year she wasn't growing and laughing and loving and a part of the family. Another year I've had to live without her.
March, the saddest, yet most beautiful month I know. It will always make me sorrowful, wondering who she would have become, yet it will always bring me joy, knowing that she *was* and *will forever be* in my heart and in Heaven.
Though she's not a part of the family in the way I wanted, she is still a part of each and every day, for she is etched into the very fabric of our lives. πŸ’•3️⃣1️⃣6️⃣ #LilyKatherineAllenBall

Many thanks for all the support we received at the Dimes for Donations kick-off. If you are interested in collecting dimes throughout the month of March for a chance at some great prizes please message us. We have several companies who are playing so you can surely make it fun in your place of business!

#dimesforlittlejoys #dimesforcuddlecots #dimesfordonation #infantloss #miscarriage #pregnancyloss #CuddleCots #idahosfirst #support #nonprofitidaho

I am so excited to announce that this coloring book is now available for PRE-ORDER! I’m thrilled to have been a part of such a meaningful project that is very close to my heart. This collection of designs forms a beautiful and therapeutic tool for grieving parents who have experienced the loss of a child. 100% of the profit from this book will go to @i.am.fruitful a non-profit supporting couples through infertility and loss. Today only use PROMO CODE: JOY20 to receive 20% off. (Link in Profile) #infantloss #love #pregnancyloss #loss #inspire #stillbirth #support #tearsfoundation #ttccommunity #inspiration #staystrong #encouragement #design #graphicdesign #art #artist #adultcoloringbook #color #coloring #illustration #coloringbook #designer #artistic #instaart #instaartist #adultcoloring #book #illustrate #watercolor #digitalart

Sorry if this photo upsets anybody but I feel like I shouldn't be scared to upload it. I have been finding it hard this week coming to terms with what's happened. I forget it's only been 8 weeks since our little man Louis was born and I felt like I was being strong and ok but this week I am not ashamed to say I am really not ok and I feel like I'm crumbling. I miss my bump, I miss the thoughts of what he would look like when he was older and the visions I had of him. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and what could have been. Miss and love you always little man, our angel πŸ‘ΌπŸ»πŸ’™ #infantloss #brighteststar #perfect #toospecialforthisworld #ourangelinheaven

It's GIVEAWAY time!!! In honor of Rainbow Week I have created this set of rainbow hair ties. The giveaway starts now and run until March 7th 9pm pst. It's super easy to enter... All you have to do is like this post and follow me. The winner will be picked March 7th. Giveaway open to US residents only, thank you. Tag all your friend who are Rainbow Mommas and he'll bring awareness and support to them. Follow @grayceandkindness to find support. #crafttherainbow #mypinknightmare #infantloss #miscarriage #rainbowbaby

Alright. Today is the day! My Mama Lifestyle blog is launching today. I've spend the last month getting her ready and now here she is ready to meet the world. I blog about: parenting, marriage, recipes, organization and diy. I'd be tickeled pink if you checked it out! #linkinbio

Happy first birthday, sweet babies. Avery in my arms and Oliver in my heart β™‘β™‘

We have had several people ask if we will continue to carry our ornaments and the answer is yes! Our ornaments are handmade by an artist in Indiana and no two are exactly alike, which we love. They have always been a favorite of Remember Me and are so beautiful. We will be carrying them in our store, soon. #remembermeministry #ornaments #handpainted #miscarriage #infantloss


This one goes out to all the mothers that hold March close to their hearts. Whether March was your due date, your baby's birthday or the day they went to meet Jesus, know you are being covered in God's love and our prayers. πŸ’™πŸ’— _


Didn't realize there was an orb in this photo of our friend Brayden with Lucas until just now as I was sifting through the 600+ photos that we have of our baby boy. Oh I love him so much, he knows how important it is for me to see him show himself to me in some way πŸ’ž#orb #spiritorb #ourangel #ourangelbaby #lucasalexandermac #sweetestsoul #ourbabyboy #infantloss #infantlossawareness #picoftheday

Because some days will feel hopeless.
Because there will be moments when carrying this loss for one more moment seems impossible.
Because trying to heal might seem like an exercise in futility.
Keep going.
This is the work of grief.
#childloss #babyloss #infantloss #miscarriage #stillbirth #ectopicpregnancy #neonataldeath #angelbabies #grief #loss #griefsupport #healing