PART ONE. Don't freak out tho. 😸 I'm fine.
Big news for me this week. 💜 I said bye bye to my antidepressants. I never thought I would be in this position in the first place; I was extremely hard for me to accepted that I needed medication, nothing else was working... My depression pretty started when I was a kid, highschool for me was really tough. I always thought that me feeling sad and alone most of the time was normal. My parents, my family never thought of asking me if something was wrong, they never asked me why I was so shy, irritable o lonely. And I never told anyone about how I was feeling. Now I know my mom noticed something wasn't right, but she didn't want to accept the reality, she didn't want to feel guilty about it, so my parent pretty much ignored the issue. I ignored myself too. Then I started to cut myself.
Years go by and things started to get worst... I was, I am a dreamer, I had big plans for myself, lots of never. Never thought things in life don't go the way you want to and I didn't have a backup plan, I wasn't flexible...Money issues, relationship issues, insecurities, lost opportunities, loneliness, more money family issues. You know, life itself. Most of my plans went to the trash, I had to support my family, I wasn't able to finished a lot of thing, a lot of goals I had.
I wasn't so bad tho, in that time I wasn't miserable. I was able to took some big chances and do thing no one thought I could do, but still, I didn't feel proud of myself. Then the anxiety became my new nemesis. My fears started to grow, I was irritable all the time, I blame life for everything and I didn't want to take responsibility for myself. .
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