Is something that I been struggling for the past years
Do I have the right to be Depressed?
I know understand the true meaning of it
When I was little I thought I was depressed nobody told me it was a mental illness
I had a reason to be "Depressed"
Actually it was just sadness because my mom and dad fought a lot. My dad abused my mom till this
Today is Tuesday, June 19
I finally understand the meaning of being depressed
Depression isn't just being sad
Its being sad for no reason
If you have a mom, dad, a brother, lovely animal, and people who care about. You still feel sad
It feels like your empty like someone carved out your heart
Its like seeing all the colors but still feeling you live in white and black
I'm numb and cold
I wantto shut the world out
I feel so isolated
I wish I could crawl into bed with my warm blankets or warm my arms around someone
So I could feel some what safe
I'm not going to lie and say I never think of ending it all
Truth be told I do
Some days are harder than others
It feels like your fighting depression
Day after day, night after night
Sometimes I say God why I'm I so sad
I want to die
When depression catches up to me I just wish I could die already
I want to think I could get through this and survive
I hope I could
But I'm so tired
Sometimes I think what if it has me too .
Back to the real question.
Would I give in?
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