So...here is a thing. I found this old Buzzfeed sweatshirt I was sent several years ago when I was a test for their iPad app. It is a medium. I put it in today and it's wearable now. The boobs are a bit snug, but it fits. I wore it to the gym. This is an anomaly because I definitely cannot fit into most medium sized clothes. Vanity sizing is a whole other can of worms. I was feeling good though. I got to the gym, did about 50 minutes on the treadmill and was hitting that fast, hard stride when the the music is really pumping and...tap, tap, tap...I took off my headphones so that a woman could tell me "You look so good! You used to be SO BIG but now...!" I stared at her as used her arms to physically show how large my body was then she asked, "How much weight have you lost? I've been watching you and you are doing so good!" I muttered to her, "Around 85lbs. Thanks." Then put my headphones back on. This shit is why fat people, and I am most definitely still fat, hate the gym. I don't want to be observed or commented on AT THE GYM. Here, on IG, awesome, please comment and inspire! I'm not this lady's personal inspirational porn at the gym. And just in case you thought this was about health, its not. It was body size, weight, and fat. I'm actually less healthy currently than I was 25 lbs. ago. My blood sugar and my blood pressure have been ticking upward as I've been working again and adjusting to going to school at the same time. I just need someplace to get my thoughts out. I continue to be confused as to my ferlingd on this. But I do know I don't feel great receiving unsolicited commentary on my body at the gym. I feel like telling tgese strangers, " Hey, find a forum where your statements would be appreciated - IG, Facebook groups, weightloss websites, weightloss meet-ups, whatever. I know you mean to be complimentary, but I don't need or want your thoughts on my body in general."
TL/DR: I dislike strangers commenting on my body in a place I'm not asking for it.
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