Growing up I was told by my family and Mormonism that we had all the answers to life, we didn't live in the unknown and it was something to be proud of and shared. That notion never felt right to me and it made me deeply depressed. I was told the cookie cutter lifestyle is the way to go. Stay a church goer, get an education, get married and have kids and you will be happy. At a young age, when being told that I would observe my mother who was overworked, no time for herself because she had 9 kids to take care of included a husband and I was just puzzled. Around 8 years old I asked one of my church going friends "why do we have to grow up to be mothers? Why do we have to have kids? Why are we told that's happiness? My mom doesn't seem that happy..." my friend looked at me confused and her response was "being a mom is beautiful." And I was just not convinced, there had to be more to living than that...kind of an odd thing to think about as a kid. Not that I don't find motherhood to be beautiful now, it was just the fact That I was told that all girls should grow up to be mothers is what bothered me as a child. I didn't like the idea of my life already planned out for me. I just wanted be those people my parents told me not to be. "Some people are just floating in the river of life, they have no destination, they are stuck living in the unknown." Apparently I was being told I should pity those people, but I didn't. I wanted that. I just wanted to float and allow life to take me where ever. Of course I was told I was crazy for wanting that, but I feel like when I allow myself to be vulnerable, have my guard down the universe has better ideas for me and knows what I need. I'm not against the idea of planning, but I think it's good to have your heart open to new ideas and opportunities that might come our way, drop expectations even if it might seem foolish. Just enjoy the unknown and the surprises that come with it. .
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