Good evening everyone✨
Today has been okay all in all! I had a short school day(YAY), got some important stuff done, meet up with my support person at school, did a workout, enjoyed a long walk and now I have just finished this!🙏 Please read🍃🍃
So today my vision has been clear for the first time in a while. I have realised how controlled I have been by my anorexia.
I thought I was in control, I thought I was the one in charge. But that's the thing. Anorexia is the master of making you feel like you got this under control and that you do go against it with all of your power. But suddenly you realise that haven't. Your fights and your wins have all been set up by Anorexia. It has given you just enough "wins" to make you feel like you are improving when you in reality isn't. Anorexia has kept you just in the place it wanted..
You thought you were the puppet master you thought that it was you who pulled the strings... but one day you wake up and realise... you are the puppet. You have absolutely no control.... So where do we go from here?
Well we have to accept it at first and don't blame ourselves. We are humans, we have imperfections and that is what makes us perfect.
Next you start to cut the strings. Some of them will be tougher than hell and it will feel unbearable! But you have to do it love because the strings will only tighten up day by day. So we need to begin, we need to make the first cut. I will hold your hand and you will hold mine and together we will make the cut, the first cut towards freedom💖💫💖