I have been struggling hard lately with the image I have of myself. My body in particular.
I am grateful that it was able to grow this tiny human on my lap, and I resent that it didn't return to "normal" after I gave birth.
It's been incredibly difficult for me to accept who I see in the mirror EVEN THOUGH, intellectually, I KNOW that I am a good person, that my weight does not determine my worth or my beauty or my abilities as a mother, or girlfriend, or sister, or artist or as a woman.
So I've been a little off my game. Tired, but not sleeping well. Not that hungry and eating an excess of all things bad for me. Slacking on my routine, which means my anxiety is an especially unwelcome, but stubborn and inconsiderate visitor. And while I know shopping is not the answer to my problems, I've found that having clothes that fit you well and that you genuinely like does help some.
If only I saw myself the way I see the trees. I wonder when, if ever, I will and if it is as freeing as I imagine it to be.
To allow myself to just BE who I am.
That would be... awesome.
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