This year has been one of the most challenging years for me. From day one, I’ve always said I’d love to be a stay at home mom. This year has shown me that maybe that’s not in the plan for me, I honesty don’t think I can do it. Don’t get me wrong, Emmett is a great kid and I’d do it all over again just to have him the way he is. He is very independent, yet doesn’t want to independently play. He’s just starting to sleep somewhat decently. Most days, he fights me for 1-2 hours for a midday nap. Maybe I don’t have the patience, or we’re just too alike, but either way I can’t do it. And that’s okay. I don’t love him any less and he’s still my entire world. When I’m down, he comes up to me and wraps his little arms around my neck and says “love you.” When we lay down at nap or bed time, he’ll rub my arm or my face and then ask me to rub his belly or back. His blue eyes light up when I walk into the same room as him. I may have to bribe him with chocolate to get him to take a picture, but he’ll stand there until I get a decent shot. He loves my chapstick and sharing bowls of cereal. He’ll help me clean up like it’s his job. I may not be the perfect mom and he may not be the perfect child, but Lord knows I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I’m so thankful to end another year with a husband that loves me and a child that needs me. These two are my reasons, my heart.
Here’s to 2018 and another year with my boys.
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