I always thought I’d feel manly being too muscular.
That’s problematic for someone who is naturally muscular.
Soccer player muscles for dayyyys.
But regardless, that was the stigma and the message.
That muscles are manly.
The longer I’ve been on this journey, though, the more I appreciate my muscles.
They’re the things that I admire when I look in the mirror.
I love seeing the muscles in my shoulders and triceps work as I lift or do push-ups.
I love seeing my forearm muscles quiver doing something as simple as watching my hands.
I love walking by the mirror and seeing that line run down my thigh when my quad flexes.
I am totally fucking guilty of looking at my butt as I walk by the store window.
It sounds arrogant and narcissistic to read that doesn’t it?
Fuck it feels even more so to write it.
But how much better would the world be if people admired themselves in the mirror instead of crimes?
I’d argue that it would be a hell of a lot better.
Yes, I still periodically feel self conscious about my thighs.
I still catch myself trying to hide my little tummy pooch by pulling up the waist of my jeans or workout pants.
But damn, I was hard pressed to tell you something I liked about myself physically a few years ago.
And that kind of of mental transformation?
That’s a game-changer.
That’s goals for me.
That’s actually what I’m striving for.
To look in the mirror and to not judge my body.
To not find things I want to change.
Not because my body is perfect.
I’ll never be a fitness model.
I’m not built with that ideal body type.
I’ll never have a thigh gap or those long legs that so many models, fitness or commercial, have.
I just won’t.
That’s not in the cards for me.
And if I can get to the point where I DON’t want that.
Where I DON’T FEEL like I NEED that to be sexy and to feel confident.
Fuck, that right there is the end game.
That’s the goal that I’m striving for.
It’s not a physical battle.
It’s a mental one.
It’s why personal development and reading are a more non-negotiable part of my daily life than workouts are.
I urge you, go spend 5 MINS in personal growth.
(Brene Brown is the shit)
I promise you won’t be disappointed