You know, I always thought I thrived on empathy and sharing my vulnerability with others. Contrary to that thought: this poem is pretty difficult for me to share today. I wrote it a few days ago in the dark. 💙 So please, enjoy "I don't want to self-diagnose, but there's nothing else it could be. I've even had blood work done." (: I hide from myself.
The pain is real.
And I'm afraid to feel.
Everything takes too much energy from the precious little supply I have
While the other parts of me say "Why don't you just do everything you possibly can?
Don't waste this reserve."
But it makes me fall deeper
And I fall onto flat boards that take my breath
And break under my weight.
I'm falling apart.
Over-analyzing, or not.
Over-thinking, or not.
Where's the courage to stand up for me?
I am downright hungry
Time to take a day for me.
Stop expecting yourself to conquer everything
Because right now,
It deserves appreciation,
And so do you.
You don't have to be the adapter all the time, you know.
You do know. -am
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