you cant stand those who live the victim,
utilizing any opportunity,
digging up past wounds for ammo to back their cause,
but how are you any different from them?
honing your sadness as if there is no other way to live.
refusing the self of your self to be free.
dooming yourself to lay
your soul, forever in the dark...
if matter is lifeless,
then what pleasure is there to be had?
therefore, pleasure being non existent
to the wallowing you exist in...
brain washed and numb...
this victimizing you put your own self through..... ***
it is important to feel.
it is important to visit all corners of yourself.
while you are visiting, you may as well clean house...
because remaining in the junk you carry,
will never be the kind of thrill seeking you seek after...
thrill doesnt exist in a place of eternal death...
pleasure in the thrill does not exist in a place without blood flow...for its the increase in blood flow that are eyes appear dilated.
just like you...just like the victim you claim bitterness over..the pain that remains is like a bacteria...
it is neither solely bad or solely good...
it is neither solely healthy or solely rotting...
be mindful of what you feed.
be courageous to fight.
be brave to deflect what doesnt belong.
be grounded-in with the child of your heart, she/he, is the truest part of you.
they were never the victim, neither should you be 💕
i wrote this regarding a lot of myself...but if it helps you or shows you like it has shown me something...i guess that is a good thing 💕 #nightthoughts #whatarush #holdingback #wearenotperfect #realthoughts