Yesterday was tough one. Riley showed grace and maturity in a way I've never seen. The memorial we attended brought up so many different emotions and I've sat for the last 18 hrs pondering my life and my children's lives. It was nice to see a few old friends but heart wrenching under the circumstances and my heart aches for those that have not been a part of my life since this time last year. The words spoken were so beautiful and the love for this person that the world has lost was palpable. The incredibleness of how very much he loved his wife and children brought tears to my eyes. His beautiful family and my dear friend will be in my heart more so than ever as they face the challenges ahead, but because of the incredible force of his love for his family I know they will forever feel his love.
It reminded me to treasure those I love and to let go of those that don't love me. It also made me realize because I am always behind my lens there are so few pictures of me and none of my husband with my children or I in those candid happy (and sad) moments (okay not none but I could probably count them all on my hands and toes). My bees are frantic in a calm way that I can't describe. I'm rethinking everything about life. I'm trying to find myself and my path all over again with the realization that life is fleeting and unexpected. I need to LIVE while I am still alive. (I wish I had taken a real picture with her facing me)