March 2014 (before Noah) to Dec 2015 (8 months postpartum) to Oct 2017
If you knew me before I got pregnant, you knew that after I withdrew from ECU i dropped 30 pounds and fell in love with fitness. That’s the time I really found myself and figured out what I wanted to do with my life. Well, we all know life happens and that’s exactly what went down. 4 months after that pic on the left was taken, I got pregnant and was sooo happy. BUT I didn’t take care of myself. I ate whatever, stopped working out and just completely neglected my body during a time I most needed it. Fast forward to a few weeks after giving birth, I go through the lowest time of my life (not postpartum depression). It lasted for a few months before I really started to suppress it and I started back working out and got to that middle pic. Well guess what, I let life get in my way again. Those feelings I had suppressed crept their way back up after I allowed for things I KNEW God said no to, to play like a revolving door in my life. It was a rollercoaster &at a certain point, I quit trying. I let go of the past (well told myself I had) and moved along-emotionally. As far as my health went, I dabbled in the gym here &there tried to eat better, but I lacked the motivation to stick to it. Fast fwd to 2 years later & here I am... the pic on the right. The result of not taking care of myself. Am I happy w/ my body? NO! It’s ok though. I accept that b|c I let myself get here. I didn’t care about my health or how I looked. I allowed myself to get here. Most importantly it’s okay b|c I know I’m better than this. I’m capable of better. There are things I’m happy about for the woman on the right though: 1. I am a great mother to a healthy, brilliant 2 year old and 2. As of Feb 2017, I have FINALLY been set free of the negativity from my past 🙌🏻 It took me til now to actually take the necessary steps but I am getting back to the old me, but def WAY better. I will reverse this body of mine! My mind is never going back 😝 Now, i challenge you to join me on this journey. Whatever it is for you, do it! take that 1st step no matter how hard it is! no matter what it is for you, do it!