so people are asking “why’d you see him after what he did to you?” first of all, i’m not that kind of girl who no matter how wrong someone does me, I’ll always crawl back to them. no. and him and I’d relationship wasn’t an awee luv u like kiddie relationship. It was actual deep, unconditional love. That’s why it hit me so hard after everything started falling apart. We were too young and handled situations wrong, that’s why it ended. i’m seeing him because I knew for a fact, after he found out I knew about him at that girl, he’d never forget it. He wouldn’t just let it be. He’d feel for me and try his hardest to distract himself from focusing on the terrible thing he did to me but because i know him so well, i knew it’d devour him whole. he isn’t the type of fuck ass boy like most on this earth. you know how yesterday i was bitching about how no guys in his generation are pure gentle, romantic, men? well he was. that’s why i fell in love and it was natural, too. we were friends first before anything. so i’m seeing him because our friend has told me “he feels bad. he wants to apologize and have a conversation.” i’m scared and confused but i’m going to do it because despite everything that’s happened, i believe he can be truly happy when he doesn’t. if this’ll help him reflect on himself and take care of himself for once, i’ll do it. i’d do anything.
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