Playing with crystals,cos they make sense ❣
Baby kicking away making it all feel completely surreal...☄ Wondering who the f im posting on this weird web for..😝certainly not really me....not sure how long im gonna last on here....I never post deep shit and I realise no one knows the real me...lol I realised this in the middle of the night..I may well b the most detached fucker iv ever met...#scary #whatnow
And how quickly A.I has taken over the world....omfg.... You know,I havnt spoken To my mum or dad in about 2 yrs,and I think iv never felt better?is that ok?lol I dont care...its like the thought of talking on the phone or catching up with them would be super weird and sad cos I have nothing to say,no real bad vibes just no.thing. nothing..?
They are 2 of the most toxic peeps iv ever met....like my mums life has been so tragic,and yet im unable to feel much because its so awful,she lost both us kids when we were really young 4 and 2... Now neither my bro and I talk to her or each other...cos when I am around her,the vibe is just strange and heavy because she is a victim of her life....and expects someone to fix it.so.hard. iv spent most of my life tyna get away from her and the other part feeling beyond sorry for her.....
Now dad is a tyranical abusive one,a body shamer,a mental and physical abuser and generally an offensive type of bloke who gets pissed at dinner parties and teases the autistic kid at the table...all the while maintaining a healthy happy above average suburban life in the eyes of society with his school teacher wife who used to reef me around by the hair and smash me into walls when my endless list of jobs wasnt up to par for a 7 yr old...and oi if her stalker daughter is reading this...I just wanna know if she ever did it to you?or did you ever clean the bath tub once in your privileged life?
I can only write and share a bit cos im feeling a bit better about the darkness in my life and the seeming unability to fix it?...maybe it will help me a little or someone else to share?
I'm comming out of this realising how strong I am. continued in comments👇🏼