There isn't any edit on this because I want to share something with you peeps.
I'm not really "vocal& #34; about my seizures. They're embarrassing, they're painful...like excruciating, they're inconvenient, they're scary as hell, they're inconsistent. Then, waking up is worse. All of these people are around you that you don't know and they're holding you down and they don't let you move. There's IVs, waiting for blood work, EKGs, Heart Monitors, disgusting medicine on top of more pills, having people touch you to put stickers on you. It sucks all around.
I have 13 stickers on me and an IV bandage and I went to the bathroom and realized that the entire thing could've gone so much worse if my sister hadn't been home. Which is why it's scary. There's no guarantee that when you go down, you'll get up and I think that's the scariest thing I've ever thought of. All of the sudden, lights out.
Which is why everyone should tell their loved ones that you love them. Whether it's your family, your friends, your boyfriend/girlfriend. You have no idea when the last time you talk to someone is gonna be and I fucking PROMISE you that if you ever lost them, you'd wish you told them you loved them more. You'll wish you'd spent more time with them. You'll wish you would've just called them instead of waiting for them to call you or instead of saying, "Eh I'll call them tomorrow."
Tomorrow's not guaranteed guys.
I don't mean to sound like a weirdo, but just proving a point.
If you think that just cause you're 20, 23, 30, you're invincible then you're wrong. Anything can happen in this world, don't pretend you're not apart of it.
Live everyday like it's literally you're last and tell your loved ones that you love them because if the last thing I remember before going is that I was loved...then I leave happy.
#thoughts #life #heavyheart #gameofthrones