MAY BE TRIGGERING!!
With 2015 then 2016 being such challenging and difficult years..
2017 could only be better..Right!!
With all the extra turmoil at the end of 2016, I suddenly started self-harming.I had done it a couple of times since the decline in my mental health but they had appeared to be impulsive incidents..
It was now ongoing since November and nearly every day.. My mental illness was as severe as ever but once again, I just kept doing what I had to..
It all became too much though and resulting in more hospital admissions, including one just before my trip to have Christmas with my mum..
A new year of the unknown..
I know we don't know what the future holds but there was so much fear and uncertainty hanging over our families heads..
When I returned home from my Christmas trip with mum, my new year started with, hospital admissions, yet again..I declined but ended up having no choice..If I didn't go in there, they were going to make me involuntary..
As much as I truly HATE that place, I didn't want the stress and trauma of being sectioned..
Then in February, I got a message saying mum had gone to hospital..She was very sick and I wanted to go straight to her..She was very unstable and it was uncertain which course of action Doctors were going to take..
I just wanted an idea of what was really happening to determine when to go to her..She did finally improve, I spoke to her and she said she'd like it more if I went over once she was home..
She went home after about 2 weeks and I started making plans for when I could go to her..
Then, I got a phone call from my brother(Yes..I still have living ones)..It scared me so much when I saw who the call was from..He said..Mum was asking for me..
Continuing in next post..(has now been uploaded)