CRAZY HAIR- DO CARE | September 22nd
#randomthoughts (tube edition)
So this whole social slash empowerment experiment i have done on myself is backfiring spectacularly. 😐
I do not remember a time in past where i felt less attractive. It is funny how something so simple as silly hair makes you feel. And as much as i try to embrace it and "werk it" -it feels very strange. Got so used to my girlie long locks for most of my life. Without them i do feel pretty vulnerable not gonna lie. Also i would be that girl who plays with her hair when feeling bored, flirty, nervous... now, nada. Nothing to hide behind.
I just passed that stage where you can tell this was a buzz cut, and you feel all empowered and shit... now it just looks like the messiest mess. Too short to style, too long to leave on its own.
Ha! I feel more obsessed with this than ever before. Interesting. I did not expect it. But acknowledging it for what it is. Good or bad.
Would i still recommend to girls to buzz the hair? I do get that question a lot in private messages. And i definitely would. I believe if you do this for yourself and your intentions are positive then go for it. It's very personal and you will know if the urge to do it is stronger than the fear. If you would like to feel less objectified as a woman and just trying to search for your authentic voice i think its great and can teach you lot about youself and the environment you find yourself in. Reactions will be mixed. From others and from you. You might be surprised that like in my case- you will be your own harshest critic. I scrutinise my looks way more than anyone else. I am blessed to be surrounded by supportive people who love me for me, my personality and quirkiness. That little voice in my own head of not being something enough has to be silenced more than anything. All starts with me.
Already I have learned so much about myself, it has been worth it. And only getting started...