I don't remember the last time I shaved. It's been months. I actually had to cancel my monthly Amazon razor subscription because my bathroom was starting to look like I'm stockpiling for a hairy Armageddon.
So...how do I feel??
Well I'm not gonna sugar coat it.
I definitely feel gross. I waffle (mmm waffles 🥞) back and forth between "Fuck yeah feminism with my fist in the air ✊️"
To "OMG I'm an unlovable yak 😩"
I certainly don't feel my most confident or 100% comfortable right now, even with it still being pants weather. And I'm nervous about exposing my body when it starts getting warm out again.
BUT, I'm also motivated to keep pushing my boundaries and comfort levels with my body.
I'm tired of other people dictating what is an acceptable way for my body to exist if I want to feel pretty or sexy.
I've had a lot of you message me and tell me, "It's ok you can shave again and you're no less of a feminist."
And yes, you're absolutely right, and I love you for saying that. But with this *project,* I've decided that, until I am emotionally OK with my body's natural hair, I will not shave. Because then, and only then, will I know that my personal decision to shave is 100% my own, and not being dictated by corporations trying to sell me society's unattainable beauty standards.
For those of you who tag me in your body hair pics, thank you. It's nice to know I'm not alone. And as much as you say I am inspiring you, the feeling is 100% mutual. The same way I make you feel less alone in your decision not to shave, your solidarity keeps me motivated that I'm doing the right thing for MY OWN self-esteem.
So whether you're a hairy ass yak or a smooth ass dolphin, I love you 🐻🐬💕
To the dude bro "feminists" who message me saying they like me better with body hair or that hairy girls are sexy: Fuck you. Get out of my space. I don't exist for your pleasure and you have zero understanding of what I'm trying to do. This isn't about your gaze. Not everything is about you, and nothing I do is FOR you.