The biggest blessing of all, the thing that makes it all mean something, is when you come to a place in your journey where you can help others.
For so long — decades! — I lived with my truth locked up inside of me. Abandoned blogs, abandoned book drafts…. These weren’t just ideas I was abandoning it. It was my life.
My soul. My desires. My dreams. My vision.
Stuffed inside the box of who I thought I was supposed to be. The box of what I thought I had to do to survive.
The box of how I thought I needed to appear to be worthy of others’ love. When all I really needed was my own.
The moment when I started to post my journey on social media every day was the same moment I decided to accept my life exactly as it was.
Because resisting my life wasn’t just resisting the circumstances I didn’t like. It was also resisting my talents, my gifts, my innate desire for self-expression.
The same resistance that kept me from fully sinking into the present moment was the same resistance that kept me from fully sinking into myself, so I could access the talent lying there inside of me. Just waiting for me to drop my ideas of how I thought life was supposed to be so I could live the one in front of me.
I spent so many years searching for ways to achieve a goal that I thought I wanted, but wasn’t really mine.
I didn’t know what I wanted and the truth is that I didn’t know what I wanted because I was trying to think it through instead of feel it through.
This whole journey has been about learning to tune in. To trust myself. To trust that pain doesn't signal unworthiness, but untapped passion.
That’s all it is. Untapped passion. Potential. Your destiny, waiting inside of you, waiting for you to face the fear, go within, and share the stories that are waiting to be told.
Do you know how lucky we are to be alive at this time? With the internet and the computer and social media connecting you to the world? We're here, at this time, with these stories and tools, for a reason.
I spent seven years of a journalism career trying to get past the gatekeepers, trying to get published and make it big, until I finally said forget it.
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