TURN UP THE ZEN ⚡️✨do any of you beat yourselves up about stress bubbling over in the moment, reacting badly to a chain of events you could possibly have avoided cascading the way they did? Last night at the crucial nearly there point at the boys' bedtime I stepped on a favourite toy as I was turning the lights out, broke it (and my foot 😖) and all hell broke loose, wailing ensued like a Greek tragedy (🙄😭). Bedtime was already too late as I'd let the boys watch TV for too long, trying to get some prep done for today's shoot 😬... they were overtired and wired, I shouted, I got frustrated at bedtime blocking things I had to do, I wasn't the best mum I could be 😞. And that feeling drip feeds its way into your subconscious and meant I was totally awake from about 4.30am until Freddie called out for me at 6. Sleep deprivation, stress, anxiety definitely hang in the same gang. They kind of surround you like school bullies by the lockers. .
I was Miss Frazzled this morning as a result and arrived at today's photo shoot with my 4am tizz brain rather than calm Anya brain. And when I get to that point I know I need to breathe: one hand on heart, one hand on belly. Soften. Breathe. In. Out. .
We finished the shoot and we got it all done ✅ thanks to some gorgeous Pilates teacher bumps being brilliant 😘👏🏼🙏🏼❤️. And I've had time to reflect on how I let worky worry seep into my time with Maurice and Freddie if I'm not careful. But: if this is you too, let the self-flagellation end there. It's normal to let stress overflow occasionally. It's human to shout 😳😬. .
Mum guilt sitting on top of your head like a small monkey 🐒 does nothing to make that reality go away. So instead, what I'm going to do is give Maurice an extra big squeeze when I pick him up from school, cuddle Freddie and pepper his edible cheeks with kisses. Show them more love rather than showing myself dislike. It's Friday. Happy Friday peeps! ⚡️⚡️🙌🏼🙌🏼🍾🥂🍷💕❤️. 📸 @janelookerphotography .
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