This battle within me is not fun. I am struggling in a big way with depression. My sense of loss is a huge obstacle. Wake up loaded with guilt, I cry multiple times a day and feel like a terrible monster. I honestly can’t imagine what my wife and daughter are going through either, that haunts me in a big way. My heart aches for them. How could I.
As I read through Ephesians 6:10-18 I am reminded that my internal battle, filled with guilt and shame, is a direct attack from Satan. He is trying to drag me down, fill me with self pity and sink me deeper into depression. I need to wake up daily and properly defend myself against his attacks.
Lord, every day I need to get dressed in the armour you have provided to protect me from Satan’s attacks. I know I have done some very hideous things and Satan would love nothing more than to have me live in that guilt. Father free me and forgive me from all of my sins. Dress me for battle, continue to break me down and groom me to be a mighty man serving Your will.
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