Finally recovered enough from two 12 hour plus days of lifting and judging to post how I did. I'm a perfectionist and not satisfied with my performance, but I did get a new bench and total PR (and won the 84kg class) this Saturday at CT State Championships.
My opening squat was so light that I tripped and moved my foot before the judge said "rack", therefore rightfully causing my coach to lower all my other squats to be safe. Tied my meet PR of 341/155, but I was expecting to hit 352/160.
Bench ironically went very well, 10# meet PR of 176/80.
My second attempt deadlift, a 5# meet PR of 363/165, flew up despite my having barely hung onto it two weeks ago. My coach thought I had turned into a magical deadlifting unicorn and increased my third attempt from 374/170 to 385/175 and I couldn't lock it out. I was happy that he thought I was capable of pulling a 10# all time PR, but angry at myself for not going with the lower number and adding to my goal total.
Far from the meet I wanted but I'm trying to be ok with not performing perfectly, and having a slight overall improvement. As always, the most thanks to @gleasonperformance for being the best coach and running out most successful CT state meet yet. Thank you to everyone on #TeamGPT for being the raddest bunch of humans on the planet. And thanks to @grrrl_clothing for providing us with some great prizes! (Special shout out to assistant coach/emcee/epic song picker/white powder applier @brianbellitto for all of the above.) Thanks for reading my book report.