Left: Smiling but self conscious. Never kissed a boy. Never watched an R rated movie. Never had a drink. Guilty. Worried. Dreamed of having a family bc that’s all I ever thought I should allow myself to dream about. Tried to be kind to everyone and please everyone. Right: Free. Confident. Listening to myself. Chasing things that make me feel more free and more alive. Dreaming of changing people’s lives and traveling and sunshine and loving passionately.
Going through hard things (for me, losing my brother and going through multiple miscarriages) in this life sucks, but it catapulted me out of a crippling and suffocating mindset. I threw myself into fitness, what I knew I loved so much. Fitness, weightlifting, ninja and a new outlook on life allowed me to transform. Being strong physically has helped me become strong internally as well. I’m so grateful for the people in my life that helped me shake such a sheltered life and allow myself to really live and be free and experience as many good things in this life as possible, without guilt❤️