I felt pretty or whatevah.
Years ago, when I was learning English, I said "I'm pretty" and dis guy laughed at me bc "pretty is for women and handsome is for men." Imagine performing a masculinity so fragile that you have to police how other guys describe themselves and make fun of them if they show any sign of femininity whatsoever. Then again, this is the masculinity most men perform, so whatev.
Nowadays I use both the gendered "pretty" and "handsome," but also the gender-neutral "beautiful." This trio of words is one of the few in which I'm okay with either option. Most times, I will only take the masculine one or the neutral one (more often than not, go gender-neutral when addressing me.) At the end of the day, beauty is a quality that doesn't care about gender. People are beautiful. Of course, I'm attracted to people who perform masculinity, but in general I think people are beautiful. Idk, there's something magical about humans that makes us incredibly beautiful. And, the more I fight internalized racism, fatphobia, transphobia, etc., the more beautiful I find people. We are a gorgeous species. There's something truly magical to our existence, both at the physical and at other levels.
Idk where this rant is going. I felt pretty and felt like reflecting on what being pretty even means and implies for people. Y'all are beautiful, lemme tell ya. Even those of you that aren't conventionally attractive, I'm realizing y'all are stunning. I'm in love with the beauty of humanity. Does this resonate at all?
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