Things got very confusing as I knew there was a mismatch between how I looked and how I felt. I knew I wasn't non-binary because I really just wanted to be masculine but at the same time I was sure I couldn't be trans because I didn't feel like I met the popular trans narrative. It's taken some time since then and a lot of research and soul searching but I found my label (trans-masculine) and it was like a weight off of my shoulders. I'm now looking to the future. I can only imagine myself as an adult man and I'm working towards that future. It feels great to finally have an answer for my questions and a future to work towards.