This is me and my real dad, Ronald. I was a daddy's girl until the age of 9. He was my world. My everything. Even tho he wasn't good to my mom, I always loved him. As I got older, the visits became less and less. I never knew the truth back then and even now I still don't know fully why he distanced himself from me and my brother. Today, our relationship is non-existent.
It's so crazy to me that my life has kinda come full circle, again, except the circumstances are a little different this time. I'm not that little girl whose angry, rebellious and wonders why. Instead, I am the parent and mother who is making different decisions to ensure that all my children feel loved. This isn't for the faint of heart. Especially when you see yourself in them and know exactly what they're going through. To make changes, to do things differently so that they don't have to become estranged from people they love, is worth every struggle I have to go thru. It's not easy. Some days I have good days and some days I want to lock myself in a closet just to get away from the chaos. Today, I am grateful for my experiences & challenges for they are an opportunity for growth. ✌️