these past few weeks I have been soul searching. there is a part of me that knows I have not been true to myself. I have been living a life out of fear for years. afraid to change, afraid of what would happen if I stopped trying to control everything in my life and let go. but letting go is one thing I have truly needed to heal. refraining from old habits, going out of my comfort zone, resting, and really paying attention to my self and what my body has been trying to tell me. and damn, rest has been feeling good. sleeping in, not worrying about eating for “aesthetics”, not obsessing about my appearance and using all that extra energy towards love. love for myself. love for others. love for nature and all things around me. growth happens when you let change happen.