Right now I am taking a break. I had a cream tea for dinner last night. I got out of bed at 12 today. I haven't squatted or done any high intensity exercise properly since the 14th may. I've had cake every day for the past...no idea...many, many days. I can see these choices manifesting in my body... I'm not as firm or ripped, I have a tiny bit more fat round my hips, my abs are less prominent... but this is okay. I've had a hell of a year (I got my freaking 2:1 !!!) and my body and brain now need a few weeks to just kick back. My knee hurts and I also just don't want to lift right now which is always a sign I need time off. Finally, I simply don't want to be playing to my usual level of discipline and structure.
I'm quite pleased that I feel chilled about taking this time off. For me, this shows that I have managed to reach a state where although exercise will always be my happy place, I can take time off and not hate myself for it. Admittedly last week I was feeling a bit gloomy about it all - I felt disconnected from my body but then I realised that the best thing to do is fill the time I would usually be exercising with other jobs or activities. I'm walking, stretching, rolling and doing LISS cardio and body weight exercises just to keep loose.
All that said, I am very excited to squat and move and run and swim once this tendinitis clears up properly. In the mean time, cake date anyone?