Since mid of 2016 until now I prayed many things not happen but they did happen. I had many fears but when they came, I found myself quietly accepted and surrendered.Like today,I just looked at this beautiful lake and quietly thanked my friend offered me this place to find some peace. My new motor it is what it is.
I have been crying, complaining and so unpleasant (due to my characteristics but mostly mood swings).Sometimes I became unbearable to my sister and friends around.However, when storms hit me I am alone with friends who are present to me physically or virtually. I did not know much the values of friendships until I faced some difficult moments in life. I do not be able to express how much I appreciate my friends who know how unpleasant, awkward, useless and nonsense parts of me but still be with me or even choose to present with me when I need.
I feel so guilty for those years I had always paid attention on me and did not care much about my friends.I did not know how to love but my friends do. These special friends know how to forgive too.
because the friendships and many things friends and life have been given to me, I know i am still a lucky girl. I would not cry for what I lost but for what I gain.