Mad how much physical pain I'm in from being hurt in a mental way. I think my heart actually hurts. My life is starting to rip apart again and I really don't know what to do. The one thing starting to make me sane gone like everything else for good and I can do but about it. I can't live with or without. I don't think I'm capable of anything else but being inside and crying the day away. It's just all crap and I don't see it getting better.