I saw this and it just rang so true for me. I wanted to share it, but doing so without explanation would most likely send the wrong message. I would love to be comfortable being friends with everyone, but my anxiety just wouldn't allow it. 40 million people in the world suffer with some form of anxiety, it affects everyone differently and what triggers some people's doesn't trigger others. My biggest fear is the fear of judgement. And this has spanned across so many aspects in my life. From career choices, to three failed driving tests. I have zero control of the little electrical impulses in my brain that send me into an inside panic. Those that suffer with anxiety will know that feeling. Drowning in your own over thinking, like someone is sitting on your chest, not being to able to breathe and searching for a place to escape to, while trying to control the shaking and sweaty palms. Now depending on where your anxiety fits in with your life this will be triggered at different times. Mine is social. When it comes to social situations I drown. Even more so if it's new, a new place or new people. Conversations are near on impossible as I can't cope with the irrational thoughts in my head and speak at the same time. So I just smile and remove myself to a "safe" place and hope that's enough to come across as a normal person. Which in fact probably comes across as the opposite. Those of you that know me will probably have witnessed this on more than one occasion.
I suppose this post is less about me, but more about raising awareness. The next time you see someone who doesn't involve themselves quite so easily, doesn't make easy conversation or just seems less approachable, don't judge them. They may be having their own battles in their head. This doesn't make them rude or unfriendly, just means it takes them longer to settle in with the crowd. Give them time.
And if this describes you, I get it!! You're not alone.
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