266/365: This has multiple answers for me:
1. Death and I have been friends for a long, long time. Ever since middle school (or possibly younger), death was always something I considered as an escape, a way to leave with no consequences. Sometimes, I still feel that way.
2. In going through this project this year, I realized I still have not really processed the deaths of people close to me. Loss is sad and especially when it is someone extremely close that you cared about deeply (my grandmother in this case). It honestly is something that took me this long to realize that I never really processed what happened.
3. With the two above statements said, I'm not afraid of death and it is not something I fear. I only fear regret. Death is easy, it's the consequences that I have to worry about.
4. In reference to Statement 1, please do not think this is something I think about all the time. It's rare. I am in an incredible place and time in my life I'd rather not want to screw up or miss. It Does Get Better as you get older. Life is such a wild trip. Why miss it?
Today's album, "Carrie & Lowell" by Sufjan Stevens, is an incredible album of loss and sadness about the loss of both Sufjan's mother and reltionships in general. It is honestly one of the most amazing albums I've ever listened too.